such a koten kendi .

Assalamualaikum , hey , just ignore the title.I have no idea to say because Im here again at JMTI library but with my course-mate Lee Feng Hang.heh the class got cancel at 8 and eff word to monitor of the class cuz he didnt alert or text me but fortunately I just met Nagaraj also my course-mate at KIOSK and he told me the class got cancel.ahhh heaven :) so , I dont know why , but I really do like this changes , I mean good changes inside my mind , body and soul.Normally , if class got cancel , I would love to spent it by sleeping.But I am NOT.I straight up to library and read the newspaper.What a shocked.I normally dont do this kind of shit , but , heh who knows everybody changing.I really do wanna say lot of things , damn it.I can't.My birthday wasnt that fun and heh I dont care.

ok , here comes the MELODRAMATIC MODE :S

(when it comes the dramatic , lovey-dovey thingy , it's dayniel fashkireen haikqal times --" ) STUPID ALTER EGO OF MINE*

Dear you,

You remind me of 'F'.I do miss 'F' a lot.I cant near you because , Im afraid Im gonna hurt you.Your smile heh preciously adorable and sweet as cotton candy.what a heart breaking not to hear you laugh around me.Im such a loser.I cant be kid again cuz Im a grown up.I cant stop that.Its a force of the nature.I cant change that.Its a fact.I just * sigh * I wanna see yourself in you. seemed like you just do oh-im-not-me-but-im-trying.I've been thinking about you a lot.I surely do think if you find out you gonna be so freakin uncomfortable.ohh shoot.so , I have to stay miles away from you.I am so afraid if Im not able to see that smile on your face.ohh.You're like a cotton candy.yummm. --"

oh GROW UP DUDE --"

eff you dann cuz bein childisly worst than your nephew and c'mon have a life ..l..

pssst:danieyl memang gedik ponn. haih --"

I am so me , 21.

so effin' gaei *sigh*

Assalamualaikum , Howdee' ? ssup everyone , readers :) I hope you are so 'in pink of health '.well , ssup with today ? ouh shoot dont cha remember today ? yeah it's my birhday :) As I expected , ahhh crap , *here come the sensitive mode*...NOBODY CARES.ouh stop being such a phony.To be honest I really do miss high school :S where everyone care about you.and about celebrating birthday , it's so much fun :) but I realised that we cant turn back time , and time machine it's just a fiction-bull-crap-whatsoever that is so never come true no matter how freakin bad you want it.yeah Im here stuck at Japan-malay technical institute , taking my diploma and have to blend with the kids that have no idea what 'real life really is'.ohh shoot dont get me started on that.Im sure you wont even wannahear about it.but dont worry I'll tell you why.sooner or later.ok , to cut the crap , I dont wanna list all kind of shit here , or the exact word is WISHLIST. ouh shoot waitI want this so bad ,

Beat studio by Dr Dre.

*Hollyshit , my day will be awesome if I own this.

continue ,

But I feel like I wanna make a promise to myself.

21 things I will or not do ;

• I dont wanna give a damn about others said.
• It's a perfect time to find 'me'.
• There are no more years to be waste.
• Be Mature.
• It's a good time to follow your own path.
• People wont shut their mouth if you refuse to follow them.
• I wont follow anyone.
• The real problem is me , myself and I.
• Act Chillax like you dont give a damn.
• sometimes I have to go with the flow , it's 'sometime'.
• Fake it til I make it.
• They're just bunch of kids that have no freakin idea.
• Not all adult act like their own age.
• Mature face doesnt mean you're mature enough.
• Bragging about something you have make me sick and IDGAFDS.
• Read Quran and complete the 5 time prayers.
• Appreciate people who give a hand.
• It's a time to redeem myself.
• Make my parents proud.
• Make everyone happy but dont let somebody take advantage.
• Last but no least , I wanna be me :)

I realised , I am 21 years old , it's a time to make a shit REAL.I mean I dont wanna talk about something that I can barely do or make it. I dont wanna crap much and doing nothing.I dont wanna argue with people about something that totally not worth it.Even though , I only gain experience from temporary job last year , I must said , I did learn from it.Even it was just 1 year , but I met lotsa people , I did lotsa job.I travel a lot to.so , what the point doing that kind of shit but you didnt learn ? gosh , Im such a jerk.But I promised I'll fixed it.Im doing this not just for myself but to those who always walk beside me , take me up when Im falling , yelled , scold and give me advice when Im out of the line. I really like when my sister in law said this to me ,

"kita bukan semakin muda"

In english it mean we are not getting any younger.when she saying this , it really make me think outside the box.yeah it's true , we are not getting any younger.Quit goofing around and invent something that will make people remember you.Not all people are lucky in this world but that doesnt mean we cant do something like 'wow' people.Thanks to chicken soup for the soul cuz publish lot of inspirational stories that move me to tears....a bit :P

*to those who dont have a chance to read it , grab it , Im surely do you will turn on pages.*

Oh shoot , Im talking a lot am I ? heh , Im at JMTI library . since , Im not owning a broadband , it's so hard to online. plus , I have lot of assignment.Thats not the point , the real point is , I have a 'butt-vein-ache'.Damn it hurt motha fucka bad , and Im eating lot of painkiller medicine.I gotta stop taking it.so , I hope this mid-sem holiday Im gonna get rid of it.ok , gotta go :) see ya.

currently listen to this epic-thing,

pssst:keyakinan itu bagus tapi haruslah merendah diri-ferhad ,mentor 6. *aku tengok iklan je kat tv3 --"

Mencari-cari siapa 'ni' ? 1.

Aku nak sangat update blog ni weih.tapi aku assignment banyak gampang , banyak beno aku nak tuleh kat sini , amboih , dah kluo bahse peghak.hehe.Ok skang aku ada kat dewan makan JMTi.Bahagia doh.sumpah.tapi takot tak lama plok rasa kebahagiaan ni , hee tapi tu lah manusia , mana ada dok atas je , kadang kena dok bawah gak kan.ye dalam beberapa je hari aku dah 21 tahun , alhamdulillah aku dapat rasakan perubahan kat diri aku.mungkin sebab keputusan aku untuk keluar bekerja tuh sedikit sebanyak *eleh bajet baku* dapat membuka minda aku yang memang bebal lagi bangang nih.ah well , aku dah agak mungkin separuh manusia akan cakap aku bodoh sebab aku tak move on tapi aku moving backward.aku harap kourang paham.ntah la aku rasa pelik gila.mungkin sebab aku terkena culture shock lagi ? mungkin sebab aku terlalu lama dok kat kampung dah bersekolah sampai tingkatan tujuh ? *upper campor lower jadi tujuh ah* mungkin sebab bomoh tu letak 'makhluk' tu untuk ubat aku lalu menyebabkan aku jadi degil dan bongok sampai cakap mak sendiri ponn tak nak dengar? ahhh terlalu banyak soalan yang berlari kesana sini lam kepala.tak yah layan.tapi kan yang bestnyeh aku semacam dah kenal sape diri aku.heeee.cam bodoh.*emang pon*.ok citer cam ni:

An alter ego (Latin, "the other I") is a second self, which is believed to be distinct from a person's normal or original personality. The term was coined in the early nineteenth century when dissociative identity disorder was first described by psychologists.^[1] A person with an alter ego is said to lead a double life.

Aku Ashraf Syakir , kadang tu aku ok , kadang tu tak , lebih kira macam moody gak ah. tapi kadang2 tu aku macam ada 'period' kadang dok gelak , kadang orang ajak gurau rasa nak penampo.ish.ok , korang tau tak alter-ego tu ape ? alter ego tu lebih kurang cam split personality gak ah.kenal nicki minaj ? minah tu banyak gak alter-ego dia.aku pon rasanya cam tu ah gak kott...sebab kadang tu aku suka sangat suruh orang yang baru aku kenal suruh panggil aku danieyl tak pon haikal.ntah ah.macam gedik je.tapi ntah aku ske dua nama tu danieyl dan haikal.bila sebut je nama tu aku jadi gedik , happy go lucky , childish , gila2 , pas tu sensitif cam kurang kasih sayang . ish.tak pelik kan ? ko hangpa yang tak paham ? ah lantak ah.mungkin slama ni aku biarkan 'daniel dan haikal' kuasai aku membuatkan orang senang berkawan ngan aku ? ntah.tapi aku tak ske ah bila 'dia' menguasai' aku.ok , kalau nak citer pasal danieyl dalam diri aku ni memang tak abes.

True self and false self are terms introduced into psychoanalysis by D. W. Winnicott in 1960.^[1] Winnicott used the term "True Self" to describe a sense of self based on spontaneous authentic experience, a sense of "all-out personal aliveness" or "feeling real".^[2]

Tapi skang ni , aku rasakan aku ada 3 orang , maksud aku , termasuk aku lah ada 3 orang. ohh tak mungkin kalau tak termasuk aku , jadinya 2 orang la hidup lam 'aku; ? who know tapi , 'dia' ni plak suka menari popping weyh , aku pon tak tahu darimya datangnye bakat nih.heheeee. mungkin aku cepat copy action kott ? ntah ahh. tapi aku dapat rasakan tu bukan aku.so , bila itu bukan aku , aku try eja nama syakir dari belakang aku dapat R-I-K-A-Y-S. RIKAYS kann ? sedap gak kan ? so kalau stage name aku tukar REQ'KAYZ.gedik en ? sial. tapi tu lahhh.


sebenarnya , idea nak mencari identiti ni dah lama tapi sekarang je berpeluang.ntah ah , orang lain sebok dok completekan esainmen aku hegeh2 tulis menda ni.harhar.ni menunjukkan rasa nak update blog setiap 24/7 berapi api.bwahahahhaha..

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JUSelena. LAUGH YOU MOTHA FUCKA ARSE OFF.